So I wrote a letter and it's going to be deliver this Saturday (10/18/17) . I'm pretty nervous and idk

November 29, 2017:
       So I didn't post this Post on the 13th of October, and the letters have been received. Everything has been open because the 28th was the last letter and it was a special occasion. In the letter had another letter to be open on the 28th. I just wish it wasn't like this, but it is what it is. Like I said I wish it was all different, but I wonder when I'm going t get back up.
       I been busy with new situation, such as old relationship and new one and its all great. It's just not going to fill that one particular void. I don't know what will, but I am enjoying situation that I never put myself. It's great, just I wish it was it and not the old/new relationship. It silly of me saying this, but I don't know. Well, can't say because I want to be treated as what I want to be so I'm treating it as if it was me, not working most of the time but what the point to holding on to it if it isn't happy. That what I'm assuming.