Lost

  Everyone don't know who I am and that is fine. I'm not a girl, nor a boy. I'm just a Human who want this other Human to value the Human. Since my last post I wrote about a letter that I sent. Was pretty nerve wreaking and felt stupid for sending it. The Human didn't deserve to read what I felt, but this Human is the only person I enjoy talking to. Since the day of the letter, the Human contacted me in December here and there, but not until the 23rd going to the 24th we started chatting again and even met up after five to six months of not seeing or even talking. 

  It was nice being next to the Human, but I wasn't satisfied. Even now after a month I'm not satisfied. Don't get me wrong I'm happy that we talking, but it got to the point again we aren't talking and that's fine. The Human and I are just friends and that okay for me. I wanted that more than anything else in  the world. I just feel that the Human isn't compatible for me anymore. I feel so hurt and unwanted. Not that we're friends again I feel unwanted, but the fact that the Human left without a trace and I, as a stupid Human I am, accepted that friendship as if nothing happen. I saw the Human the other day, but didn't say hi. I felt like I was stalking the Human or maybe I was and I'm being in denial, but I just felt sad and realize it's not the same anymore. The fact that Human did many things that I just accept without the Human having any consequence for the action just makes me feel I'm easy. That anyone can just push me around and do whatever the fuck they want with me. It's stupid. I know, but I just like to think I have a good heart. I do anything for Human to feel happy and not feel abandon.

  The thing is if the Human want to see me than it would do so. I'm tired for always looking and trying to hang out. I don't know if the Human want something with me. The reason why I say that is because the way Human wrote me on the 24th. Seem like Human is looking forward eventually like I do, but same time it be another chance and I just feel so ugh and scare.

  It scary for me to realize that the human could have another human and I just cant bare it. You know how artist write songs and sing it or rap it. Human is like that. Hearing it breaks my heart, because it about another human. Not sure the relation of this human with the Human that was mine, but the fact Human wrote and declare it to another human really makes me not want to be Human friend and just kill myself. 

  I'm not happy at all as you can read and I'm sorry for my grammar. I don't want to leave Human at all. I just want Human to stay with me forever. Creepy? I know, but it's just want I feel and want to have.

P.S. I'm going to a concert with my friend's partner. Just the two of us. Wish us luck! Lana del Rey.

P.S.S. If you can correct my grammar i would appreciate it since I am trying to improve. Thank You!

So I wrote a letter and it's going to be deliver this Saturday (10/18/17) . I'm pretty nervous and idk

November 29, 2017:
       So I didn't post this Post on the 13th of October, and the letters have been received. Everything has been open because the 28th was the last letter and it was a special occasion. In the letter had another letter to be open on the 28th. I just wish it wasn't like this, but it is what it is. Like I said I wish it was all different, but I wonder when I'm going t get back up.
       I been busy with new situation, such as old relationship and new one and its all great. It's just not going to fill that one particular void. I don't know what will, but I am enjoying situation that I never put myself. It's great, just I wish it was it and not the old/new relationship. It silly of me saying this, but I don't know. Well, can't say because I want to be treated as what I want to be so I'm treating it as if it was me, not working most of the time but what the point to holding on to it if it isn't happy. That what I'm assuming.

Letting go and I'm Sorry

So I decided to leave (metaphorically) his life. I always stayed and always have open arms but it been a year this crap been going. I cant anymore. I cried all day today and I think it's because I promise him that I wouldn't give up on him no matter what, but I think he talking to someone else. In one of those media that you can upload videos she was there. I onto know her but it killed me knowing that he would talk to other people and won't talk to me.
I took him out from my social media and my number. Took off his family aswell just because it be healthier for me.
He's my best friend but I don't think I'm his and I thought he love me but I guess he never did.
I really do hope he does better and not hurt her like he hurt me. He's my pa forever no matter what.
I know it's time for i to move on but it hurt badly and I really hope he stop being a scumbag and behave.
You can't train an immature boy...
There so much to write but I don't want to tear up again.

Lonely

I have never felt lonelier in my whole life. I don't know how but I feel like shit. I lost the most important person in my life and I don't know if I drove him away. My best friend. I miss him since the day we wasn't working out.
I don't want him happy with anybody else, but if I'm not his than there nothing more than his own happiness.
Not sure what hard, the fact he basically move on or the lies of promise we have. My heart aches. I just wish he could come back, but how if I block him from my phone. I really don't know.
I have no one to talk to. I have a date I guess sunday, but it's not him. I don't feel guilty yet but I do wish it him instead of this new person.
I know my happiness could lie on this new person or not. All the time I'm with someone they always leave and have someone new. It hurts alot, but I know it's my fault. I guess I could be obsessive and mean if I haven't seen him for a while. Crazy shifty person I am.
I just wish that.... I do things that I know I expect him to do if the role has change.
My best friend and only. Lost two person at once. My pa. 💜

Introduction: Caca Amoroso

  Hello my name is Caca Amoroso, I play game once in a while when I have time. Since I do go to work, school, and get busy in life. As in the introduction said of this blog I would do a recap. This blog would be about what I feel in my personal life. Things will be rearrange for not naming and giving details.
  Giving opinion and what I look forward for certain games. I have only a PS4 and on the 28th of October I will have a 3Ds. I hope this small introduction interest you and become my audience. I would like to let you know that I don't wrote well in English. Which mean, my grammar isn't well, I'm still learning.

  Thanks for taking the time to read what doesn't seem that interesting. For now I hope.