So I decided to leave (metaphorically) his life. I always stayed and always have open arms but it been a year this crap been going. I cant anymore. I cried all day today and I think it's because I promise him that I wouldn't give up on him no matter what, but I think he talking to someone else. In one of those media that you can upload videos she was there. I onto know her but it killed me knowing that he would talk to other people and won't talk to me.
I took him out from my social media and my number. Took off his family aswell just because it be healthier for me.
He's my best friend but I don't think I'm his and I thought he love me but I guess he never did.
I really do hope he does better and not hurt her like he hurt me. He's my pa forever no matter what.
I know it's time for i to move on but it hurt badly and I really hope he stop being a scumbag and behave.
You can't train an immature boy...
There so much to write but I don't want to tear up again.
Monday, October 9, 2017
Saturday, October 7, 2017
Lonely
I have never felt lonelier in my whole life. I don't know how but I feel like shit. I lost the most important person in my life and I don't know if I drove him away. My best friend. I miss him since the day we wasn't working out.
I don't want him happy with anybody else, but if I'm not his than there nothing more than his own happiness.
Not sure what hard, the fact he basically move on or the lies of promise we have. My heart aches. I just wish he could come back, but how if I block him from my phone. I really don't know.
I have no one to talk to. I have a date I guess sunday, but it's not him. I don't feel guilty yet but I do wish it him instead of this new person.
I know my happiness could lie on this new person or not. All the time I'm with someone they always leave and have someone new. It hurts alot, but I know it's my fault. I guess I could be obsessive and mean if I haven't seen him for a while. Crazy shifty person I am.
I just wish that.... I do things that I know I expect him to do if the role has change.
My best friend and only. Lost two person at once. My pa. 💜
I don't want him happy with anybody else, but if I'm not his than there nothing more than his own happiness.
Not sure what hard, the fact he basically move on or the lies of promise we have. My heart aches. I just wish he could come back, but how if I block him from my phone. I really don't know.
I have no one to talk to. I have a date I guess sunday, but it's not him. I don't feel guilty yet but I do wish it him instead of this new person.
I know my happiness could lie on this new person or not. All the time I'm with someone they always leave and have someone new. It hurts alot, but I know it's my fault. I guess I could be obsessive and mean if I haven't seen him for a while. Crazy shifty person I am.
I just wish that.... I do things that I know I expect him to do if the role has change.
My best friend and only. Lost two person at once. My pa. 💜
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